What does dissociating feel like?

Hi everyone! Let me be the first to apologize for everybody inside. We’ve been very busy and barely managing our finances. We currently have two jobs, no internet access at our house, and have been obsessed with reading soul eater, the mortal instruments series, and the house of night series. Sorry for the prolonged absence.

Today I wanted to talk about something that gets asked to me a lot. What does it feel like when I dissociate into someone else. So let’s start with the biggest thing, like a seizure or a fainting spell I can feel it coming on. That being said there are a lot of technicalities about dissociation that are hard to understand so I plan on delving into that in the near future. Today, I’m just going to focus on the feeling, what happens, what people can do to help me snap out of it, and how I keep myself present during extreme stress if I need to be there.

So let’s start with the first one eh? Now before I continue I would like to place a disclaimer here. People who have dissociative disorders all experience dissociation differently. How I feel may be different to others. What helps me may not help others. Please be aware this is just a blog to get the disorder out there and make it less scary to the world and ultimately work at achieving stopping stigma on all mental illness.

How does my dissociation feel.

As I said I can usually feel it coming on. I tend to get extremely hypersensitive. Everything seems louder than it is and sometimes my head is chaotically filled with voices. When I feel this way I usually try to isolate myself, pull covers over my head, and place a pillow over my ears.

After the hypersensitivity gets bad enough if I cannot find a quiet place to focus then things start looking like a dream. I start feeling like I’m awake and dreaming. Sometimes I remember things that happened several years ago as if they just happened not that long ago. I also sometimes get unwanted memories once the spell is over. And dizziness hits me bad when several of my parts are coming out at once.

If I continue to not be able to focus on something else I start feeling younger or older based on the age of the part that is coming out. I feel intense emotions that cause a lot of anguish before the part comes out and then based on the emotion they come out. (I have an angry tweenager/protector, a sad child, a happy child, etc.)

What happens?

Once the part comes out I know it’s not me who is talking. Everything being said is like I’m watching the part that came out in a movie. Almost all the time I can’t keep track of the conversation. Like one of the biggest problems is I’ll know what sentence they said and then a second later it would have disappeared without me grasping the meaning.

I only am allowed to remember bits and pieces that my Inner Self Helper (the one that works closely with everyone and is very logical about everything) let’s me. Sometimes it will be a quick snapping out of it if I notice that one of the parts is digging a grave. Sometimes it won’t even if the part is causing issues. Afterward I’m zapped and realize how much energy it took to be that person.

What can people do to help?

It really depends my Inner self helper is very good at telling people what needs to be done when I am not present. Sometimes it asks for the person to let us sit in silence. Sometimes in really severe cases it needs a bit more tactical approach. For example: something happened not that long ago that for some reason caused me to dissociate but no one came out (It was a part that was more of a fragment I think.) It took someone actually touching my shoulders and saying something in my ear to snap me out of it. Other times I just need something in my hands or if I know you really well something that the part coming out likes. And other times I need someone to just talk to me and joke with me to snap me out of it.

How do you keep yourself present?

This is an ongoing battle that you kind of learn as you go. Communication amongst my parts and I have been very helpful in this. For example they all know if something stressful happens at work and I dissociate because of the stress an adult alter needs to take over and remain calm.

As I said I can feel it coming on (I felt it coming on a lot today due to the holidays). When I feel it coming on and nothing major is going on I excuse myself to the bathroom or take a small walk outside for a bit. Maybe listen to music hide under covers sleep write read or video game. I always have some things with me for when I can’t leave the scene of stress to keep my hands busy. Right now I have a fidget spinner, a big awesome stress ball, some dice, a slinky, and amiibos in my bag of tricks.

Anyway I hope this was informative for anyone who wants to know more about dissociative identity disorder. I hope it helps you with anyone you may know with this mental illness and clears up the Sybil notion that everybody with dissociative identity disorders forgets big chunks of their life and cannot hold down a job. There may be some people who have it that severely and I look at them as the bravest people you will know. However my counselor who works with a lot of people who have dissociative identity disorder states that everyone but one of the clients she has seen can hold down a full time job and be successful in the world.

Also my counselor and I discussed the possibility last week of he communication with my parts has improved so much that I may not need to go to therapy weekly and eventually graduate from needing therapy at all. I’ve been in therapy 15 years guys and lots of people with dissociative identity disorder may have to be in it longer than that but 15-20 years is the average I’ve noticed.

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Halloween Special: What is scary about Mental Illness?

First off let me begin this eye catching post with one word:  NOTHING!

The only thing Scary about Mental illness is the people who stigmatize against us and think they understand it when they really don’t.  You cannot truly understand any mental illness unless you have experienced it first hand.  You can learn all about them in school and pretend to understand but then a lot of the times someone will approach you with that one mental illness that was talked about as “severe” in school and all of the sudden you are scared of them.  I get this a bit because no one can truly understand these severe mental illnesses that seemed so debilitating when they learned about them unless they have dealt with them themselves.

Halloween special:  What is scary about mental illness?  Nothing and I can help you understand the mental illnesses that seem so severe and debilitating a little bit better so that you can understand that no matter what friend has a mental illness that seems severe and debilitating it does not always mean that it is.  Today is Dissociative Identity Disorder.  Yep this will be kind of a recurring thing for a while so that those who do not understand can have a better understanding.

So Dissociative Identity Disorder is the one I will start with first.  That is because it is often seen by the world as something that is severe and debilitating.  No one really learns about this in school when they are majoring in Human services because it is considered very rare.  The most I remember us discussing it was five minutes in Abnormal Psychology where the teacher told us we would never deal with someone who has it so we don’t need to study it.  It is also a very controversy illness that is still being studied and contemplated today.  A lot of people try to claim that Dissociative Identity Disorder is created by the therapist with someone who has severe paranoia.  This, to someone who experienced this before even knowing what it was, is (pardon my french) Bullshit.

Dissociative Identity disorder used to be called multiple personality disorder before they realized that a lot of the personalities were made by dissociating away from the body during trauma.  I used to be big on a site called Ivory Garden and they had some really great ways to describe it so I’ll give you kind of how I would describe it to someone who is scared of it.  First of all it is not scary, not at all, second it does not debilitate as much as Hollywood has made it feel.  I have a person who works with people who have Dissociative disorders and she told me out of all the people she has worked with only one of them did not work in a public environment.  That was because they decided to be a stay at home mom.

Sybil makes it seem like if you have this disorder you will forget major events and so you should not work or like you should be kept in a hospital the rest of your life.  (Both of these have been brought up to me by well meaning friends who just did not understand what the disorder consisted of).  When in point of fact there are personalities in your body just for when stressful things happen at work who will tell you what happened.  Also when another personality takes over (at least for me) I know who it was and I just feel like I’m watching them through a movie screen.  Anytime something majorly life threatening happens to us or someone we love and we dissociate there is a personality that keeps us in the know about what happened when we get back in my case.  Therefore if I switch because I have to give someone CPR I can describe the incident in detail as myself when I come back.

So how are the personalities formed exactly?  When we are born as a child we are called a blank slate.  During the time period we are growing up we form our own likes, dislikes, and personality based on the world around us.  With someone who has dissociative Identity Disorder anytime they dissociate it’s like starting over from birth.   So lets say a child is forced into taking pornographic pictures with someone and they don’t want to so they work to find a way to get away from it AKA dissociating.  Pretty soon everytime they are forced into taking these pictures they dissociate into the same blank slate of mind and that blank slate starts forming a personality based on the traumatic event.  In my case it was a scared, younger,  male personality.  So anytime a traumatic event occurs over and over a blank slate turns into a personality that deals with that traumatic event.

So how is Dissociative Identity Disorder treated?  You probably think you know the answer to that but let me give you one hint.  There is more than one way unlike what the book Sybil wants you to believe.  I personally made the decision against integration because to me everyone inside is a real person who I have become attached to.  So the treatment I have chosen is Eye movement Desentization therapy and working on building better communication with everyone inside.

Some of the treatment options out there are pretty interesting.  Hypnosis is not what I would choose as I already get in a dissociative state when I’m stressed all hypnosis does is reiterate that state.  However some people have been lucky enough for hypnosis to work for them.  Eye movement desentization therapy is used to help you feel the intense feelings you refused to feel back then because you were dissociating.  It does require intense emotions but the therapist will do a good job giving you a positive emotion after an intense session.  There is also integration which is getting everyone to merge, but for some of us with insiders that is the same as killing our insiders even though we are told over and over they are still there.

And lets see a therapy I would not choose to try on someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder is Cognitive Behavioral therapy.  We had a therapist try this on us in the hospital once if you have been keeping up on our posts.  He kept trying to tell us that all the different personalities were thoughts in our head that we chose to make real.  One of my angry personalities came out and actually was asked if we needed to talk to he staff at the hospital about us being a problem.  The next second I was out and crying because I was so confused.  The moral of this is not only do I feel the personalities are real but they too also feel like real people, and if anyone ever tries to tell them they aren’t they will lash back out and reeducate you.

I have Dissociative identity Disorder.  I have lived on my own since I was nineteen years old.  I have held down several full time jobs in that time frame.  I have formed good relationships with people I meet and work with.  I am often told by everyone I work with that I do a great job in what I do.  I am able to hold down a job and live on my own despite my disorder.  This goes to show that it is not as debilitating as the world likes to think.

I hope that this has given you all a better understanding of Dissociative Identity Disorder for when you meet someone in the future who has this and it scares you a bit.  We are not scary, we are people just like you, we want to be treated normal.  A lot of time well meaning people will look it up and there are all these sites about making sure all the alters are listening etc.  Anytime anyone has ever said something like that to us it has made us want to kick there ass.  Just treat us like we are normal, despite the fact that there are a lot of different people inside.  We do enjoy when people can tell who is out but we don’t expect it.

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What causes mental illness?

Hello everyone!  Welcome back to End The Stigma.  First things first, my apologies for not posting recently.  I was unable to get on the internet.  Therefore I am posting via smartphone so this will be a short but important post.  What causes mental illness In people?  A variety of things can and I covered some in my last post about getting on the right medicine.

So lets start with the one you hear most often.  It is true but unfair because everybody uses it as the end all be all.  The environment in which you grow up can cause a mental illness.  However, someone can grow up in a wonderful home and still have a mental illness.  I get so upset with well meaning people who think environment is the only cause.  Even well meaning Psychiatrists and Therapists try to tie mental illness to your childhood.

What people don’t realize is there are other environmental factors that can cause a mental illness besides a poor childhood.  A child could have been exposed to a large amount of dangerous chemicals in their environment.  A child who grows up in poverty is likely to develop a mental illness not because their family was bad but because they are exposed to so many dangerous things.  Mental illness does not discriminate as much as the world does.  It can hit old, young, rich, poor.

So I used the example of poverty for the first section. A person who grew up rich can also be affected by a mental illness.  If you got everything you were able to it would lead to kind of a boring sad life.  That in itself no matter how much you enjoy your things can cause you to feel pretty blue.  It could also be that you never had to learn to self soothe and your brain didn’t figure out how much chemicals it needed to produce because you got a high anytime you got something you wanted.

Now before I continue let’s add a disclaimer about everything in this post being opinion and some speculation.  Yes mental illness is still being speculated and studied.  No one is 100% sure what causes it but speculations and studies is what has brought us this far in figuring it out.

There have been several studies about my next cause for mental illness genetics.  I’ve actually heard they even have a genetic test now that checks your DNA so that they can Put you on the right medicine the first time.  If that continues that would be amazing.  Medicine for a mental illness has been more of a guessing game leaving those of us with mental illnesses feeling like lab rats.  I’ve been guilty of counting how many pills I have been put on in my life.  The successful and non-successful.  We also take a pill cocktail at night 5 different pills.  Wouldn’t it be nice if this DNA test made it so you nay had to take a little bit of medicine.

Anyway back to reason two that causes a mental illness, genetics.  This has been studied a lot and has been proven true.  If you have someone with a genetic type of mental illness (Bipolar, Schizophrenia, depression, etc).  You are more at risk for developing one of those mental illnesses.  Does that mean you will get the mental illness?  No not really you are just more at risk for getting it.  It’s just like children of parents who were alcoholics.  They may never take a drink in their life because of the chance of getting. Addicted (I knew someone who did this he was an amazing person, pastor, and loved to help people).  They may make the choice to drink but not get addicted.

So the mental illness is usually sitting dormant in your DNA.  Studies have proved that something triggers the onset.  Just like taking a drink can trigge alcoholism.  A lot of times these mental illnesses sitting dormant are triggered by stress, environmental factors, etc.  A lot of times these mental illnesses won’t show up until much later in life.  Which ties to my point that not all mental illnesses are caused by a poor childhood.

Anyway next would be chemical imbalances in the brain which I covered more in detail on the post below this.

I hope this has given you a better understanding about why loved ones may experience a mental illness.

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Working to get the right medicine

Thanks for coming back to End the Stigma.  Yesterday I wrote a bit of a blunt post about getting diagnosed with the “In” mental illness.  Today I’m going to write a bit about medicine for people who have a mental illness.  Medicine is something that people tend to have the wrong idea about.  As I’ve said before people think you can just get over a mental illness (this is especially the stigma about Major Depression).  This is not a true myth about Depression or any mental illness for that matter.

For those of you who have never faced a mental illness before it probably seems really weird to you that we have to take medicine for our mental illness.  I know a lot of people will experience some kind of mental illness in their life and when they do I hope that they feel educated enough about it to work through some of the opinions people throw on them.

There are several types of medicine for a mental illness.  You have your anti psychotics which work to help the brain not have as much activity.  These are the pills that they give to people who have bipolar, anxiety, or any kind of hallucinatory symptoms.  What people who have not experienced these symptoms don’t realize is that these are symptoms caused by a chemical in the brain being overproduced.  This chemical puts us in a bit of a hyper arousal state which can cause hallucinations, manic symptoms, and high anxiety.  The pills help to control the chemical that is being overproduced in the brain so that it can slow things down.

Granted we may still have these hallucinations and everything else at least a month into the medicine before it builds up enough to get to a point where they will not bother us anymore.  You need to be patient with us as the medicine starts to suppress this chemical in our brain.  It can take anywhere from 1 month to 3 months before the medicine will show any noticeable changes.  It is working to control how fast that chemical is being produced in our brain so that when these scary things happen we can start telling they are feelings instead of real things.

Here is a link to an easy to read website that has more info on what antipsychotics are and what they are used for:  https://patient.info/health/antipsychotic-medicines

Next up is anti-depressants these are given to people who have Bipolar, depression, and other mental illnesses that cause mood swings.  These pills are used to make a chemical in our brain work the way it should.  Those with mental illnesses like these do not produce as much of the chemical as what people who have never experienced a mental illness have.  Again this is a chemical in our brain, it is not a choice we made, it is not something we focus on purposely.  Sometimes the feeling just crops up out of no where and then we have trouble pulling ourselves out of the funk.

These drugs can take anywhere from 2 weeks to 2 months to build up enough to work properly.  Please be patient again because there are going to be times that we are going to decide it’s not working fast enough.  That is when you need to encourage us to continue to take them so they can build up.  No medicines that are used for mental illness are a one and done deal it takes time to build up in the system to where it is producing or suppressing the chemical that we are taking it for.

Here is a good website with a lot of info on what antidepressants are and what they do for those of us who take them:  https://www.medicinenet.com/antidepressants/article.htm

Last but not least are the anti anxiety pills these are like the rescue inhaler in the world of anxiety.  These pills are taken when you feel an anxiety attack coming on, or after having a really bad anxiety attack.  They help you relax within only a few minutes so that you can focus on breathing and calming down.  These are controlled substances and unfortunately for some of us with major anxiety disorder not all psychiatrist prescribe these.  Anxiety attacks are scary and we do not bring them on ourselves.  It is not our thoughts or feelings that cause an anxiety attack.  Sometimes things just happen where all the sudden out of the blue you start feeling like you are having a stroke or a heart attack.  I’ve had to call an ambulance two times because of a bad anxiety attack before.  That is when these medicines come in handy is when you are in the midst of an anxiety attack if you take one it helps slow down the chemicals in your brain that is causing the anxiety.  It is a bit like an anti-psychotic only you notice relief immediately when you take it.

Here is a website I found that talks a bit more about what Anti anxiety pills do and other ways to deal with major anxiety attacks when you don’t have the medicine with you:  https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/anxiety-medication.htm

Anyway as I said yesterday I was going to talk a bit about why throwing too many medicines at people at once can cause a lot of trouble.

So you just got diagnosed with a mental illness and the first thing you are told by whoever diagnosed you is that you need to find a therapist and/or a psychiatrist to learn coping skills and be placed on medicine to change the chemicals in your brain.  So the first thing you do is get a therapist so that you can talk about the things bugging you and find new ideas on how to deal with them.  The second thing you do is get a psychiatrist so that they can put you on the right medicine.

Yes having a mental illness is expensive because a lot of doctors won’t prescribe antidepressants and Psychiatrist can cost anywhere from 200-500 dollars an appointment or more. Therapists can cost anywhere from 50-400 or more an appointment.  Luckily with therapists a lot of them provide options for people who do not have insurance where they only make you pay a set fee for appointments, however Psychiatrists don’t do that.

So you are going to a Psychiatrist now, and usually when they are trying to figure out medicine they want you to come in at least once a month sometimes even more to monitor how the medicine is working for you.  One of the biggest mistakes psychiatrists make, though, is throwing two or three medicines at you at once for all your issues because they know they are expensive and want to get you on a stable medicine plan so you don’t have to see them as often.  When this happens sometimes you’ll have awful side effects, the problem with them doing this is there is no way we can tell what medicine is causing the awful side effects.

So my psychiatrist one time prescribed Zoloft to me and I was also on some medicine due to a spider bite around that same time.  They also prescribed risperdal as well.  I started breaking out in a horrible rash shortly after taking all three new medicines.  I had to take myself off all the medicines before we finally realized it was the Zoloft causing the rash.  This is why it is so important to communicate with your psychiatrist, especially if they are deciding to throw 3 or 4 new medicines at you at once.  Because if you do not tell them to take it one medicine at a time they won’t.  It may cost more money in the long run because you have to go back to start on the next medicine, but you won’t end up  wasting so much money on doctor bills because of side effects that you can’t tell where they came from.

Anyway thanks for reading this educational and long post.

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“In” mental illness and its effect on correct Diagnoses.

Welcome back to End the Stigma and thank you for coming back for a peek!

Yesterday I discussed my long harrowing story of getting the right diagnosis for my mental illness.  There was a lot of good info in that post, and also a lot of personal info.  I do hope it did not overwhelm you all too much.  Thank you for coming back again even if it did I really appreciate that people are reading these blogs, leaving comments and likes, and also the networking I’ve been building up on wordpress for this my third day of having a blog.

Anywho a little tip on my site now, as you can see a new page was added, teen reviews, this is a blog for the teenage parts inside of me to review their favorite things.  If you can’t find it scroll to the bottom of the page or hit the three lines on the top right.  Part of the reason I’m setting up pages for everyone is so that you can see the difference in personalities.  (Plus the teens wanted to review things when they saw I was working on a wordpress blog).

Okay now to the topic today:

“In” Mental illness and the effects it has on a correct diagnosis.  Yeah long title I know, but I had a bit of a writers block today so I went back to yesterdays post to see some of the things I had said I would discuss at a later time.  This is definitely something that needs to be covered because people who have mental illness usually get grouped in a category of the “In” mental illness of the year.

So lets start with the fact that if you are diagnosed with the wrong mental illness no amount of treatment or medicine is going to work because it’s treating something you don’t have.  Kind of like if someone has bone cancer and you are giving them insulin it won’t help the cancer at all.  It’s the same with Mental illnesses and medicine.  Truth be told the first several years you just feel like a lab rat.  They throw all these medicines at you and sometimes they make the mistake of throwing too many at you at once which causes issues that I will address in a later post.

Now all this ties into the “in” mental illness of the year because unfortunately as I said above that illness is over-diagnosed because it is such a new thing.  Not only that but it is very interesting for Psychiatrists to have a patient with a mental illness that has not been well known because it gives them something to study and write research papers on.  That negative but true thing being said does not apply to all Psychiatrists and Psychologists but it is a known fact that the newer the illness the easier it is to throw the diagnosis out there because so many people still do not understand it well enough.

So lets discuss a bit shall we?

In 1976 the made for t.v. movie Sybil came out.  In the movie commentary (yes I did buy the movie) all the cast talked about how much more Dissociative Identity Disorder was being recognized among Psychiatrists and Psychologists.  In the commentary they state that they are really glad the movie helped move the direction towards getting more undiagnosed cases noticed.  If you look at the statistics of Dissociative Identity Disorder after the Sybil movie and book were released there is a big spike in people going to be diagnosed for it.  Is this a good thing or a bad thing? According to the movie it is a great thing because it makes them feel the illness has been more accepted into culture.

Before I go on I need to state this is my opinion and not necessarily that of all people who have a mental illness.  For those of us with Mental illnesses who have struggled with the wrong diagnosis over these “in” illnesses it is not a great thing.  Honestly, for me, I have to roll my eyes about it.  Yes of course people are going to get checked out for Dissociative identity disorder after seeing this movie.

Unfortunately it was another media outlet that made the mental illness look like something everyone should have.  I mean just look how much Dr. Wilbur loved Sybil, treated her like a Princess, got attached to her, and even asked her to live with her after her treatment was over.  For anyone who is lonely and struggling because of their own life of abuse and depression this looks like a done deal.  Lets go get diagnosed with this illness because if we do we will have a special friend!  Again this is just my opinion so please don’t take this wrong, however I feel I have a right to this opinion as I struggle with this disorder and know it is not all cotton candy and rainbows.

No, guys, my therapists never treated me like a Princess.  They would never ask me to live with them after my treatment was completed.  They also kept therapeutic boundaries with me.  This is what I need.  Yes I get attached to them but I also need that because it helps the personalities feel more open to expressing themselves.  There are also still so many Psychiatrists out there who do not believe in the illness. It took a while for me to get my family to understand because they also had the view that it was a fake illness.  However now everyone inside can say they feel they have a bit of a relationship with all my immediate family members.

The stigma around the illness is sickening to my stomach.  As I stated before I lost 3 big opportunities because of this mental illness.  However, I kept struggling to beat the statistics, and I can proudly say I have a 4 year degree in Human services because of my struggle.  I proved everyone wrong who thought I could not make it.  I live on my own and am able to keep a roof over my head.  I’ve also learned how to control some of the major symptoms I get with this disorder and stay co-conscious with everyone inside much better now.

Anyway so lets fast forward several years after Sybil came out a new movie came out called Girl Interrupted.  For those of you who do not know this movie was loosely based on the classic novel Girl Interrupted.  Very, Very, Very loosely if I remember right (I haven’t read it in a while but I retain books I read fairly well).

So Susanna has Borderline Personality Disorder in the book a new type of mental illness that is not diagnosed a lot.  She has a sociopath friend named Lisa in the movie who if you watch the movie claims she was a lifer in the hospital.  Guys read the book okay just please.  Valerie was a good Nurse in the book as well but she was not as prevalent in the book as she was in the movie.  I really only remember Valerie being brought up 3 or 4 times in the book.  So lets see when did this movie come out again.  Ah yes, 1999 when this disorder was starting to be in research pamphlets and everything.  Bear in mind this book was written about a hospital stay in the 1970s if I remember right so it took us long enough to get Borderline personality disorder out there right?

So anyway now Borderline Personality Disorder is the “in” mental illness.  As a matter of fact I was hospitalized when it was and all 15 people that I was hospitalized with had been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.  So do you see where I am going with this?  I was getting treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder which is Cognitive Behavioral therapy and Dialectical Behavioral Therapy.

The second hospital visit:  Try using Cognitive behavioral therapy on my parts that feel like separate people from me.  “These are thoughts in your heads that you have turned into people.”  Where did the conversation go after that? Oh yeah one of my altars took over and almost got me in big trouble at the hospital.

Anyway sorry to go off on a tangent but I felt I needed to show proof of what I was saying the best way possible.  I wish I could’ve found the link that talked about the increase in mental illness after movies based on mental illnesses came out but I couldn’t find it.

So like I said the mental illness that is popular at the time or the “new” thing at the time is the “in” mental illness.  At one time even Attachment disorder was over-diagnosed.

So again as I said it is a big deal to be diagnosed with the wrong Mental illness because you are not getting the right treatment.  It’s like taking cold medicine for chicken pox, it just doesn’t work.  What happens is we sit in treatment for the wrong diagnosis a long time and people get concerned we are not moving forward.  It is because they are treating our mental illness wrong because we were diagnosed wrong.  Therefore relying on the “in” mental illness when you cannot physically put yourself in the patients body can end up causing more pain than good.

Thanks for reading this long overly tangent post haha.

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